I’m completely familiar with tiredness. I’ve always struggled with energy. Diabetes has something to do with it. Thyroid issues don’t help. Is it emotional or physical, I sometimes wonder. I had a really good winter, and lately, even with allergies coming on way too early, I have a lot of good days.
Today I’m not tired, I just can’t get going. At first I avoided my writing project, because I knew it would suck me in for the rest of the day. I had things to do. After staring at facebook a little too long, I chose the writing after all. I wasn’t getting anything done anyway.
It was a good choice.
Writing always energizes me. At least inside.
About the tiredness. It’s hard to understand. It comes on suddenly for no reason. It feels like a short circuit in my wiring. It’s as if someone turned the light switch off. Even after 8 hours of sleep, I can’t get going. Sometimes there’s brain fog, but not always.
That's probably why I talk too fast, and work too hard sometimes. When I feel good, I know it won't last forever. I try to squeeze all the juice I can out of those feel good days.
I listen to my body, and do the best I can. I eat the right foods. I exercise regularly. I drink a lot of water. I listen to my doctor. I use herbs and take vitamins, but sometimes it doesn’t work.
Sometimes the dishes pile up. Laundry and paperwork pile up too. It’s okay. Friend-husband helps a lot. I do what I can. And when I can’t do anything else, I can play the piano, I can read,
…or I can write.